Life has an uncanny way of testing our strength and resilience, throwing unexpected obstacles our way. Today, I find myself at the penultimate stage of a battle against cancer, eagerly awaiting the day I can finally bid farewell to treatments, surgeries, and uncertainty. It has been a year and a half filled with ups and downs, but through it all, I’ve discovered the power of gratitude, the importance of self-expression, and the significance of unwavering support. Join me as I reflect on this transformative journey and prepare to embrace the next chapter of my life.
Embracing the Struggles
I must admit, today my emotions are running high, and tears well up in my eyes. Perhaps it’s the weight of this hormonal rollercoaster, courtesy of early menopause gifted by cancer. Or perhaps it’s the overwhelming feeling of exhaustion from the relentless barrage of medical procedures and constant uncertainty. Nevertheless, I am here to proclaim that I am over it, ready to leave this chapter behind, and move forward with newfound strength and determination.
The Light at the End of the Tunnel
September 8 marks the date of my last treatment, a milestone I eagerly anticipate. While some may choose to ring bells or engage in celebratory noise-making, all I desire is to step away from the past and step into a future brimming with possibility. Goodbye, Felicia – I am ready to bid farewell to this chapter of my life.
Acknowledging the Bad Days
Yes, even in the face of such tremendous challenges, I too experience bad days. It is crucial to acknowledge and honor our emotions, allowing ourselves to feel the weight of the journey we have traversed. However, amidst these dark moments, I hold immense gratitude for the overall sense of strength and vitality that has carried me through. I have endured, and I am stronger for it.
The Symbolism of the Lotus
In the midst of my battle, the lotus flower emerged as a powerful symbol of hope and resilience. Just like the lotus, I have had to grow through the mud, facing adversity head-on. Only by navigating the challenges with grace and determination could I reach the point of blooming. My journey through the mud is nearing its end, and the lotus within me is ready to flourish.
Following the Right Direction
Arrows have always fascinated me with their ability to guide us forward, keeping us pointed in the right direction. They remind us to stay focused on our dreams and aspirations, even in the face of adversity. As I approach the final stages of this battle, the arrows etched on my skin will serve as a constant reminder to keep moving forward with courage and resilience.
A Tapestry of Love and Support
None of us face life’s challenges alone. Above the lotus, I will proudly wear four dots, symbolizing the love and support of my partner, Karl, and our children. Beneath the lotus, three dots will represent the unwavering presence of my parents, Tim and Sally, and my sister, Lisa. Their love has been my rock, and I am forever grateful for their unwavering support throughout this journey.
As I reflect upon my arduous journey, I am filled with a renewed sense of hope, resilience, and gratitude. The challenges I have faced have shaped me into a stronger, more determined individual. Soon, I will bear a permanent reminder of this transformative journey on my wrist—a lotus, blooming through the mud, guided by arrows, and surrounded by the love of those who have been by my side. Life’s obstacles may attempt to bring us down, but with courage, love, and unwavering support, we can rise above the darkness and embrace the light that awaits us. Thank you all for being a part of my incredible support system. Together, we will continue to inspire and uplift one another on this beautiful journey called life.
Peace, Love & Kicking Ass… 💗